Saturday, December 18, 2010 Posted by Jake Comments: (0)
I am a person who loves traditions. I love to make traditions and I love to keep them. In our family, there are so many different things that we have to do exactly the same every single year or there is a certain sense of unrest and dissatisfaction at the end product. I think this boils down to something that has been grown in my mind over the years; I don’t like change. For some strange reason, I took off with this tonight. I walked upstairs and I opened a drawer knowing that there was going to be a blue pen in there. I know this because that pen has been there since the first year we came up to Flagstaff (we are now on 4 years). I found a real sense of comfort in the fact that I knew what was about to happen in that moment. I was going to open the drawer and that pen was going to be right where I left it the last time. As this comfort hit me, I was also hit with a sense of dissatisfaction about the way things are in my life.
I don’t like change. This single statement has been a big defining characteristic in the man that I am right now and has really shaped my life in so many ways. I think that growing up, I buried this ideal in my mind and that meant that nothing was going to change this, even if that meant sacrificing healthy life patterns. Recently, I have been finding that as I grow and mature in Christ, there is so much wrong with this mindset. The idea of change is found all over the Christian faith. In fact, this year, I have been hit with the fact that I am not changing enough. My “ideal” life ends with me doing what I want, when I want, and how I want. Tragically, I feel as though I have allowed myself to settle into this mindset. A lot of times, I really don’t feel as though I am a different person than I was a year ago. The split comes as I see that I live in between two different worlds.
In one world, I feel as though I live how I would like to live. This involves me coasting. Life comes and life goes, but I don’t adjust who I am in order to really deal with the obstacles that life is throwing at me. If I am truly honest with myself, I find that I live in this realm more often than not. I’ve been having some really great conversations over the past 2 months that are we really starting to shake me.
In the other world, I feel as though I need to change. There are so many different Biblical bases that suggest this pressure that I feel. I know what the Gospel says. I know that I am saved by grace, through faith, that I might come into right relationship with God. I feel as though I have the answers, but my life is not reflecting that. I guess I’m finding that as I see my brokenness, my response is not supposed to be such that I take it for granted. The Gospel saves me daily from myself. I guess that I find that I fight that too much. I want the good news of the Gospel, but not the response that flows from a transformed heart. God is really starting to impress that thought upon my heart and I’ve been wrestling through this idea a lot for the past 6 months or so. There is a fight in my heart. A split that needs to occur.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010 Posted by Jake Comments: (0)
Monday, November 29, 2010 Posted by Jake Comments: (1)
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" 2 Corinthians 12:9
I don't have life put together, and I never need to because Christ put it together for me at the cross.
Sunday, November 28, 2010 Posted by Jake Comments: (0)
Saturday, March 27, 2010 Posted by Jake Comments: (1)
The word of the year for college group at RMCC has been inaugurated eschatology. It kind of makes me feel really smart even to repeat and spell it out. Inaugurated Eschatology is the principle that the Kingdom of God is already here, but not yet completely here. I'm finding that this has a way of manifesting itself in so many different ways that we just don't take time to sit and think through. Why is it there's so much brokenness in the world? Why is it that when things don't necessarily work out the way I picture in my life, my world falls apart? Why is it that I find that sin has this uncanny way of creeping up and infecting my life? Why? Tension. Jesus is in the process of ushering in this Kingdom that we can't wrap our minds around, but because of sin we must wait. At the same time though, there's this awesome picture of a people completely broken; waiting for a God who desperately wants to rescue them. So while I wrestle with the thoughts of a fallen world and with the continual reminders of the fallenness in myself, I rest in the fact that Jesus is making all things new.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010 Posted by Jake Comments: (1)
I guess what I've been wrestling through and thinking about with all of this is how much I never saw and thought about in regards to community. Honestly, my thoughts have always been very me-centered. With that train of thought, God has presented so many people and obstacles in my life that have simply been hammering this notion that life is better lived together. The book that I have been reading on my own the past week or so is actually called Life Together, written by Dietrich Bonhoeffer, and it's been pretty much a punch in the stomach to several of the things that I thought, keyword thought I had going well. In the 4th chapter, he talks about meekness and he says this, "Only he who lives by the forgiveness of sin in Jesus Christ will rightly think little of himself." My Response: I want to experience life in community and allow those relationships to be shaped by the Gospel.
Friday, March 19, 2010 Posted by Jake Comments: (2)
1.) Prodigal God- Tim Keller
2.) Counterfeit Gods-Tim Keller
3.) A Thousand Miles in a Million years- Donald Miller
4.) The Pursuit of God-A.W. Tozer
5.) Searching for God knows what- Donald Miller
6.) Forgotten God- Francis Chan
7.) Christless Christianity-Michael Horton
8.) Life Together-Dietrich Bonhoeffer
9.) This Beautiful Mess- Rick McKinley
10.) The Reason for God-Tim Keller
11.) Jesus Wants to Save Christians- Rob Bell
12.) Mere Christianity- C.S. Lewis
13.) Flickering Pixels- Shane Hipps
14.) The Great Omission- Dallas Willard
15.) The Road- Cormac McCarthy
16.) Surprised by Hope-N.T. Wright
17.) The Cost of Discipleship- Dietrich Bonhoeffer
18.) Doctrine-What Christians Should Believe- Mark Driscoll
19.) Scandalous- The Cross and Resurrection of Jesus- D.A. Carson
20.) The Tipping Point- Malcolm Gladwell
21.) Outliars- Malcolm Gladwell
22.) In the Name of Jesus- Henri Nouwen
23.) Jesus of Suburbia- Mike Eerie