Today has felt like a roller coaster. I'm finding that my mind has a funny way to run around in circles. I feel as though I can be in one state of mind for a second and then a thought or song or phrase will come to my mind that causes me to sink back into a mindset of defeat. I find myself in a constant place of realizing my need to find a sense of satisfaction in something outside of myself. This year has been a year of lots of different emotions and states of mind. The one thing that has remained constant in the midst of my mess is the fact that God is good. I have questioned that on several different accounts throughout the year, but I find myself coming back to the one thing I know to be true: I am worthless outside of the cross. This statement is funny because my life doesn't reflect that truth in my thoughts and actions. So many times I look to different functional saviors and I always find myself coming back to a place of dissatisfaction and loss. As I'm writing this, the Spirit has been impressing this verse on my heart:

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" 2 Corinthians 12:9

I don't have life put together, and I never need to because Christ put it together for me at the cross.

Learning to Crawl

This week has been tough. I've found myself being really sad about lots of different things that are happening and it's really tough to keep a straight head on. I want to start blogging more regularly again and use this as an outlet to process what I'm going through and how to deal with that. I'm excited to see what God has for me in this net season of life as I learn what it means to be utterly and completely dependent on a God who knows me better than I know myself.